April 01, 2022


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I am capable.

In December of 1999, I packed up nearly everything I owned and moved to Columbia, South Carolina, to chase my dream of becoming a television news reporter.

All my life, I had envisioned realizing my dream of becoming an on-air television reporter...and it was happening.

I literally pinched myself after I parked my white Jeep Cherokee in the parking lot on my first day on the job.

About three months in, the newness had worn off, but I never allowed myself to feel truly at ease.

I produced the noon news and reported live in the field for both the 6 p.m. and 11 p.m. newscasts. I had mastered the equipment, learned how to read proficiently from the teleprompter, and figured out who to ask for help in order to complete the tasks I couldn't on my own.

Frankly, I was amazed at how well I had adapted.

But my celebratory spirit was overshadowed by the fact that I remained woefully unsure of myself.

And it didn't help that I felt lonely and anxious at home—long after I had left the station for the day.

I had beat out candidates from all over the country to earn a spot on the WLTX-News 19 team.

But there, I was doubting myself as if that was my job.

I failed to acknowledge that I was there because I had what it took.

I failed to realize that I was where I had long wanted to be.

I had failed to remind myself that I was capable.

I didn't realize it back then, but going to South Carolina and working at that TV station was one of the best things I ever did for myself. 

Can you identify a point in your life when you underestimated your own capability?

I love that quote by Eleanor Roosevelt in which she said, "A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how strong it is until it's in hot water.”

But that's true for each and every one of us: Man, woman, and child.

The key, as I see it, is to tap into our strength and recognize our capability while we're still in the difficult moment...and not just long after it has passed.

"I accept my power. I know that I am quite capable of handling each day as it unfolds."
                                                                  Louise L. Hay

The affirmation for April 2022 is:

                             I am capable.

© Copyright Courtney Conover, 2022

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